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i just wanna go and walk somewhere and just keep walking untill i can get as far away as posible and maybe try to start a new life because i have a feeling that it will be better for me because my life right now is full or lies and stress and pain and to tell you the truth i cant handle it.....................i wish i could reverse the effects that were caused by me. i hurt people i shouldnt have hurt in a billion years i broke the promise i wrote to myself  and i should be punished for it.......................but i gotta say this.........the people i hurt i just wanna say im sorry for what i caused and i dont blame you if you hate me and done wanna have anything to do with me i dont blame you but i am really sorry i hope you can forgive me but if not its okay, i just lose it sometimes and i cant control myself.....................well i have a feeling i may have just ruined want i have worked so hard on to get............but i guess i will have to start over but i will start over with all new people, i just have to move on because i just have to its better for me...........................................