old times

 

lately ive been thinkin about my old friends and i wish they were here because i know i can trust them and i know that they are true friends.........................the people who im around now dont really act like their my friends...........to me its more of their just people i know.  and after people act like their my friends and then sit thier and turn on me.........i dont trust anyone so i push people away not because i dont trust them but because i cant trust them...................most of the people i know want to be your friend so they can get stuff from you basicly use you..............................................so their not true friends and another reason i push people away is because its like i cant be myself, i have to act the way they want me to act................well if i have to act a certain way to be someones friend then i would rather not have friends because i am wo i am and no one is gonna change that!!!!!!  its just like why should i have to sit here and pick out people i can trust and i shouldnt have to but apparently i do in this fucked up place we call home but wahtever i am who i am and it will always be like that and if you dont like that then FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!